Heidi's Journal...

Colours of my life meme

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 00:25:55 GMT

Shamelessly stolen from colacancol

RED = ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Nope, everything is good!
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? Me probably!
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Yep, although often just messing around, rarely in anger.
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? I don't tend to look in a mirror when I'm angry...
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?If I'm on my own, I scream and shout like a demented person, but I'm slightly calmer in front of others, generally I'll glare.

ORANGE = EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? No... I'm sad about that now.
2. Are you easily excited? I can be, if it's the right kind of exciting thing!
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about? Darren Hayes concert on Monday, OMFG... love that man. And of course there are the G4 concerts...
4. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought? "Where the hell's the property section of the paper?"
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? Ice cream and Ewan McGregor... (5 minutes later and I have remembered there is Ben and Jerry's in the freezer and a new DVD featuring Mr Ewan right here...)

YELLOW = SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name: Heidi Louise
2. Birthday: May 4th
3. What's your main goal in life?: To be successful, although my definition of successful now might be different to my definition in 10 years time...
4. Do you want to have children?: I can't wait to have children, I'm one of the broodiest people I know!
5. When do you want to die?: What kind of question is that?!?!?!

GREEN = OPINIONS
1. Are you against gay marriage? Nope, people should have the choice to marry whomever they want to.
2. Lower the drinking age? Definitely not.
3. Capital Punishment? I believe that it depends on the crime committed.
4. Abortion? Against it except for certain reasons - there are so many people in this country who want to have a child to love, that i don't think it's right.

BLUE = LOVE
1. Do you love someone? My family and friends, and then a few others...
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? I like to believe in it, but then i also believe that love can grow between two people

PURPLE = Q&A
Q: How many beds did you lie in yesterday? A: One
Q: What color shirt are you wearing? A: Turquoise strappy top and black cardie.
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday? A: Get out of bed...
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now? A: A lot...
Q: Is Tom on your Top friends list? A: Nope.
Q: Look to your left. What's there? A: The ironing board and iron.
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? A: I don't borrow clothes...
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? A: Visit lots equally!
Q: Do you have plants in your room? A: None
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now? A: My shoulder, think I pulled it at work somehow.
Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in? A: Um... blimey, Dublin perhaps, I haven't been in a taxi for ages.
Q: Do you own a picture phone? A: Yes.
Q: Recent time you were really upset? A: I was kind of upset on Tuesday, but not *really* upset.

PINK = LAST
1. Person you saw (not family): some work colleagues
3. Movie watched in cinema: Miss Potter
4. Song you listened to: No idea, had the radio on coming home from work, not paing attention though.
5. Person you talked on the phone with: A customer - I couldn't find their house.
6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone: No

GREY = TODAY
1. What are you doing right now?: Um.... this survey. And weighing up the movie/ice cream combo or bed...
2. What are you doing tonight: It is tonight
3. What are you going to eat?: Possibly some ice cream!

BROWN = TOMORROW
1. Is: Sunday
2. Goal: Get to work on time, make some boxes, have a laugh, buy some ice cream if it's hot, make some deliveries and come home.
3. Are you going to laugh? Probably!

In honour of Feb 14th...

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 23:26:56 GMT

I would like to say to all my friends and anyone who is kind/crazy enough to read this journal...

I love you all, you're all very special to me, and I treasure you all. Have a very special Feb 14th, whatever you do.

Bloody hell...

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 02:40:17 GMT

So, it's 9 days to Christmas, I still have cards to send (anyone know the last posting dates?) and still have about half my presents to buy...

Edit - 2nd class last posting date is today, 1st class is the 19th...

What the fuck happened this year? Last year I'm sure I was more organised than this.

I know what it is... people won't tell me what they want, some people are just DIFFICULT.

Should have been a scrooge and had a rule - you don't tell me what you want, you get nothing. Heh. That'd sort em out. *snirks*

But I am not a scrooge, I love to buy pressies for people, so, I shall brave the crowds and queues on Monday (oh heck I think the little darlings may have broken up already) and finish my shopping.

In other news... I had my car insurance cancelled and have now paid double for different insurance (£850 *mumbles*), my parents have been difficult this week and I'm wondering if you can ever really change who you are and what you do...

That bloody stocking...

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 18:06:45 GMT

Just go to my Myspace page to give my Christmas love, bastarding LJ is being poxy.

http://www.myspace.com/angelofdarkness4585

Thanks and cookies!

xxxx

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 17:21:44 GMT

So, there's not a lot going on in my life at the moment. I'm working my 28 hrs, having a lot of fun at work (including shooting rubber bands at each other and chucking pots of dip at each other... crazy? NAH...) sleeping (too much) eating (ditto) and NOT cleaning my room.

Thus, this entry is going to look a little sparse, save for the meme shamelessly stolen from colacancol

Oh no, wait, I forgot one thing I have to add... BUY G4'S NEW ALBUM, ACT THREE, AS IT IS SENSATIONAL!!!

On with the meme...

A is for age:
21

B is for beer of choice:
I can't stand beer

C is for career right now:
Dominos Delivery Driver and loving every moment!

D is for your dog's name:
Tara

E is for essential item(s) you use everyday:
Computer, iPod, and the regulars like soap, deodorant, etc etc

F is for favorite tv show at the moment:
The Simpsons

G is for favorite game:
The Sims

H is for Home town:
Ditton

I is for instruments you play
None

J is for favorite juice:
Orange (fresh, not the value crap... I have expensive tastes)

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick?
Oh so many people.

L is for last place you ate at:
The computer

M is for marriage:
Hopefully one day

N is for your full name:
Heidi Stevens

O is for overnight hospital stays:
Um, 1 apart from when I was born.

P is for people you were with today:
My daddy :)

Q is for quote;
"Ewan MacGregor's voice is like an orgasm for your ears. Mmmmm."

R is for Biggest Regret
I don't know. I have regretted stuff, but then I think that i wouldn't have done some of the stuff I've been able to do.

S is for special talent:
Raising one eyebrow

T is for time you woke up today:
9am

V is for vegetable you love:
Peas

W is for worst habit:
Biting my fingernails

X is for x-rays you've had:
I think I've had Xrays at the dentist, that's it.

Y is for yummy food you ate today:
Ham and Turkey Sub at Subway

Z is for zodiac sign:
Taurus

Quite possibly....

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 03:49:32 GMT

the best quote...

sweetsunangel

"...you can't trick yourself into believing that there's always a fairy tale ending. Because there's not. That's what I love about Moulin Rouge.

That and Ewan MacGregor's voice is like an orgasm for your ears. Mmmmm."

"Love?...

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 15:02:59 GMT

... Above all things, I believe in love."

I've recently remembered how much I love Moulin Rouge. It started with innocently putting all my CDs onto my iPod, listening to the soundtrack, realising I still know all the words to my favourite songs, listening to them every night, and often having them on in my car, with me warbling along, and then digging out the video (yes, VHS, so old school!) and remembering just how much of a cinematic masterpiece the film truly is.

So...

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:30:11 GMT

... I'm off to Southampton with Debs, Charlotte and Dianna tomorrow. What will we be doing, I hear you cry...

... well we won't be at the fucking proms, because it was cancelled on Tuesday. Something to do with the bastards that are Totally Epic not getting the paperwork to the council on time.

Oh and Ticketline don't know their arses from their elbows either - they keep telling different people different things - send us your tickets, rip up your tickets, we'll give you face value refund, we'll refund the lot... *facepalm*

But it'l be lovely to see my buddies anyway, have missed them. And we're gonna have a great time :D

Friday

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 12:40:25 GMT

I feel an addiction coming on... I LOVE Chocolate Fudge Brownie Frijj - had one every day this week *wonders how good it is for the waistline* but it's soooo tasty! Tesco have it on offer 2 for £1 at the mo, brill considering they sell them for 87p each normally. I'm so lucky Dad passes it on the way home from work every morning - means i don't need to even go and get it!

No other news, just loving the frijj.

Mood theme

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:55:09 GMT

I have a new mood theme, many thanks to Naomi and Potterpuffs!!

OMFG...

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 12:31:31 GMT

... I officially hate the Jobcentre. I mean, yeah, they give me money, which is nice of them, but when you want something else... *seethe*

I want a letter stating that I receive JSA, because the dentist was a bit dubious when I handed over my JC book last time, he told me I should really have a letter.

So I called my local JC to ask about a letter, and they said I have to ring the Canterbury Social Security Office - different to the JC there.

The number is an 0845 number - funny how when it's an expensive call they make you listen to tinny music for 2 minutes, before switching to the ringing tone for another 3 until you get pissed off and hang up. Or when they tell you to call back as there is nobody currently available. Or when you listen to the godawful tinny music and then you get cut off.

I've called 6 times so far, got cut off once, listened to shite music once and been told all the lines are busy four times. ALL I WANT IS A LETTER!!

... I have an iPod! it's really rather cool, I haven't figured how to get videos on there yet though...

... I'm going to be a collection volunteer for the Oxfam bookshop for a while! Well, I hope so anyway - going to see the manager tomorrow. At least it might get certain people off my back for a while. I have 3 weeks til I've been driving for a year, then I'm going to try Ocado and possibly Sainsburys down the road, as they are both advertising ATM.

... I'm going to go and do an A Level!! Saw in the Adult Ed book I can do photography for free since I am on JSA.

... I've been hanging on this line now for 7 minutes... I'm getting REALLY pissed off. Oh thank god, they've answered... now I have to try not to get pissy with them.

Stansted...

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:40:39 GMT

... and I don't mean the airport!

Stansted Park - Last Night of The Proms - was last night, and it was such a great day!!

I picked Debs up and we went and had lunch, then checked into our Travel Inn. Got ready and headed off to Stansted Park - I only needed to do 2 U-turns, woo go me!

Anyhoo, met up with people and hung around the gate for an hour and a half, taking pictures, chatting and planning who would run to bagsy the spaces at the front... thank god I can't run!

Anyway, we got in, sat down, sorted ourselves out, found out there was PROPER candyfloss being sold so bought some (note to self - remember shoes next time as thistle patches hurt) and generally mucked about.

I used some of Steph's face and body paint to write "G4 SLUT" on Craig's chest, and then he leaned across me and smeared red face paint on my jeans - thats ANOTHER piece of clothing he's messed up - I should start billing him y'know...

So the orchestra stuff started - I can quite happily listen to classical music as long as I recognise it, these I didn't so i was a trifle bored. Then of course, came the guys - those lovely guys!! They sang 10 songs, in between classical orchestra pieces - entire list (as shamelessly stolen from Kerry) is as follows...

Ruslan and Ludmilla Overture - Glinka
Pavane - Faure
Prelud and Mazurka from Coppelia - Delibes
Air on a G String - Bach
Introduction and Act 3 of Lohengrin - Wagner

G4

Nessun Dorma
Au Fond Du Temple Saint
You'll Never Walk Alone

Overture Light Cavalry - Suppe
Slavonic Dances - Dvorak
Sleeping Beauty Suite - Tchaikovsky
Galop from William Tell Overture - Rossini
Entry of the Gladiators - Julius Fucik

*Interval*

Overture to Orpheus in Underworld - Offenbach
Montagues and capulets - Prokofiev

G4

La Donna e Mobile
My Way
BR
You're The Voice

Dambuster March - Coates
Fantasia on British Sea Songs - Wood

G4

Rule Britannia - Arne
Jerusalem - Parry
Pomp and Circumstance No 1 - Elgar

1812 Overture - Tchaikovsky
(plus fireworks)

I think the guys looked so pleased when we all chimed in with every song - arm waving in abundance during YNWA, clapping during YTV (as always) headbanging in BoRhap, and of course we all had to join in with La Donna (la donna e mobile, qual puma al vento, muta d'accento, e di pensiero) and Emma and I put in a well timed "TEAM CHRISTIE" although I really should have shouted Team THAPA... :D

It took us an hour from the show finishing to actually leaving the car park (aka overgrown field) and then travelling on a 2 mile long dirt track (my poor car is filthy)

We detoured to Bognor, just for a bit of fun, then to Emma's house, then Debs and I had to navigate back to Havant at 3:30am!!

Spent the afternoon in Havant before Debs caught her train and i began the long drive back home (with a detour to Nikki's house)

I've had such a great weekend, the only low bits were the drunk chavvy cows trying to start a fight with Cheryl and Steph (language along the lines of 'I'm gonna fucking break your jaw on this fence' and 'stupid fat c***') and the fact that the back of my neck is very painful - 13 hrs in a halterneck equals red line around back of neck, very painful

Random

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 22:36:08 GMT

Pirates 2 is fantastic!!!

It does throw up into the air the old question of Johnny or Orlando... for some reason I never had that trouble with Pirates 1.... *confused*

"Why is the rum ALWAYS gone? *stagger* Thats why."

*pouty voice* "I want my jar of dirt"

And is it me or did Davy Jones scare the BEJEEZUS out of everyone else too?

people

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 19:23:51 GMT

...get thee to G4 Online asap for new news on the tour book (see my post a couple of weeks ago...)

Livejournal...

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 00:58:17 GMT

...FUCKING SUCKS.

I make a big old ranty post (which I'm sure everyone is a bit bored of now) then I go down to fill in all the 'mood' etc boxes, post and get told that I need entry text to make a post. Livejournal has only gone and gotten rid of the post... This is not the first time either.

Anyway, as i was saying before LJ went all squiffy... it's another late night, because of a late start.

I got up at 2pm today... I know, I know, I'm such a lazy fucker. And my parents are getting pretty pissed off that I spend so much time in bed, and I hate myself for it as well. It's just... it's easier to lay in bed and sleep than it is to get up and yet again try to think what to do with myself for the day, as well as the ever depressing thought that I still have no job.

Had a job interview a week last Friday, it went really badly. I can't emphasise how badly it went. Suffice to say, the agency that sent me haven't contacted me either way, so I'm gonna take a stab in the dark and guess they don't me.

Oh well... nothing really exciting to tell about, Stansted Park in 3 weeks though, although the 'rents know it as 'mates 21st birthday'... think they would hit the proverbial roof if they knew it was another concerty thing.

Sorry for yet another 'woe is me' whingy type affair.

Ramblings

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 23:44:01 GMT

Had another browse through the CD of documents etc from our old PC, after it died a death. PC guy somehow got the docs and shoved them on a CD.

Only reason I did it is because trialia made a post about MP3s earlier and I remembered that the CD had Gorecki on it - and since we haven't anything to download onto on this PC, I was so glad I found it on there.

Also found some X Factor clips i think - haven't checked everything out yet. Definitely saw O Holy Night, which I think has one of Mr Ansell's WTF notes...

Oooh thats a thought - I have a fic on a floppy disk in my room, missed it out when I transferred other stuff from disk to this PC via the laptop, must do that tomorrow.

Might write more slash too... have an idea in my head but no idea how it might turn out on paper... or PC.

And must tackle Everest, and call the job agency, tell them I'm only looking for Temp work until i hear back from ETS.

Forgive the ramblings, but otherwise I'll forget. I'll remember if somone replies to this, then I'll get an email, read the reply and remember the stuff I have to do.

Sometimes I wonder why I don't just write a list...

Oh yeah, and happy birthday to my little cutie Tara - 6 today! I'd post a picture of her, but OMG I can't find the 'picture' button on this rich text thing. It's been replaced by a 'add video' link. Dumb thing. Tara, for those that don't know, is my family's dog.

ETA (August 2) Tarie!!

G4 tour book

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 22:51:48 GMT

Posting this here in case some people miss it online.

http://www.g4-online.co.uk/forum/viewtopic.php?t=8770&start=0

I'm really pleased some people seem psyched about it, and hope I can get anough people to pull it off. Might give me something to do anyroad!

So...

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 19:32:09 GMT

... it's over.

I've had the best 3 weeks of my life, reality sucks when you get back to it and get nagged all the fucking time.

'Have you looked at the paper?' "Yes" *disbelieving stare*

If anyone wants to give me back the last 3 weeks, it would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks to everyone who made it fab.

Wed, 24 May 2006 23:24:02 GMT

I was going to post some happy go lucky drivel about how great the concerts were, but why bother? Everything just gets ruined in the end, people get hurt, people get annoyed, people just don't feel like making an effort anymore.

Maybe I'll speak to some of you again, maybe I won't, guess it depends if you're sick to death of me whinging on time and time again... 'oh my life is so crap, oh no one cares, no one wants to employ me' yada yada. Maybe you should all save your sympathies for the people in the world who have real worries.

Maybe I should remember I'm lucky to have my health and my friends.

Tour happiness!

Sat, 20 May 2006 09:16:58 GMT

Well, I'm on tour! 2 dates down, 3 to go (4 if Debs has her way... bad influence)

I am not going to say too much because a lot of people haven't been yet, but OH MY GOD!

It has been the most fantastic 2 days EVER! I'd like to state that I got birthday kisses (Mike even offered a birthday hug as well, bless him) and wouldn't let Jon go without giving him a kiss last night in Brighton. Slightly stubbly, which just made it all the more special... *squee*

Anyhoo, more when I get home on Tuesday, Cola - see you on Monday, I will hopefully check my LJ at some point in Leicester, if you want to meet up for a quick bite (of FOOD not G4 men, I know how your mind works) let me know a place and time, not sure how to get to the town from the Travelodge, might gte a bus to the station and the tram from there - is that ok?

I'm SO excited about the weekend I've got, even happy about the 2.5 hr bus journey today cos Charlotte will be at the end of it. Loff your ear flops babe!

Speak to y'all soon.

xxxxx

Stuff

Tue, 16 May 2006 13:08:17 GMT

Tour starts in 2 days, looking forward to it especially since we have been told there will be G4playinginstruments happiness to look forward to. (I can think of a G4 instrument I'd like to play *raises eyebrow suggestively* *slaps hand*)

Anyhoo, road trip of 600 miles still to come (shame i can't drive Nikki's car, else we could take turns) and tour dates a plenty...

Sun, 14 May 2006 21:10:31 GMT

1 - List ten (10) things you want to say to ten (10) different people.
2 - Do not state who these people are.
3 - Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation'.

1 - I can't wait to see you, I've missed you.

2 - Really wish you had the time to speak to me, we're drifting, and you promised it wouldn't happen.

3 - Enough is enough, put the dream aside.

4 - I wish you'd realise how annoying you are.

5 - *squee* I'm so looking forward to seeing you again!

6 - I hope I haven't offended you - you seem to be getting quieter as each day goes on.

7 - I owe you so much, thank you for being there for me.

8 - You're just my partner in crime, sweetie.

9 - Another person I can't wait to see again, missed ya!

10 - Shut the fuck up and go have a bitch at someone else.

drowning in this half life

Thu, 11 May 2006 01:00:38 GMT

To all those who don't give a shit about me any more...

FUCK YOU

I don't know or care who out of you, if any, will read this, but by God it's something I want to say to your faces but I'm scared to.

You don't know me, maybe you never have.

You know who you are.

Tue, 09 May 2006 23:21:54 GMT

So... Livejournal lost my whole post, which is pretty fucking stupid of them, so I guess I'll have to do it again.

I'm now the grand old age of 21. Doesn't feel any different to a week ago. The thing that bugged me is why loads of people said that I shouldn't get too drunk - do they not know me at all? I'm practically tee total, through choice. The trouble is, some of our generation seem to think you can only have a good time if you're pissed, and 18 and 21 are seen as great opportunities I guess... Still, my meal out was good, but the less said about the rest of May 4th 2006, the better. Lets just say I have had better birthdays.

Anyhoo, tour starts in just over a week. I am pretty excited, apart from the lack of money. Nikki has been absolutely brilliant, without her, I wouldn't have places to stay or transportation for most of the places I'm going. I consider myself pretty lucky that she is my friend, and she has faith and kindness to not ask me about paying her back asap (although I will) although I am sure she could use the £150-£200 I owe her.

Have almost everything sorted - accomodation and travel, and tickets, just have to pack, repack, and do piles of washing in the next week.

Work - Jobcentre have told me I now have to start looking at alternatives to nannying, now I've been signing on for 3 months. And just because I will not be there to sign on next Thursday, I had to fill in, get this, a holiday form. I kid you not. The government let all these lazy foreigners into the country, and they let foreigners out of jail without deporting them, and they are worried because I can't look for work for 6 poxy days.

Driving - Some twat almost caused an accident yesterday - he was in the right hand lane of a roundabout, i was next to him so I could go straight ahead, and the fucking James Blunt (stole your phrase Char) cut across me to go left! I was gobsmacked and sooo pissed off.

Fanfiction - WHY O WHY are some people still allowed to post such crap? There are some people posting stories who can't even string a sentence together, let alone a story, and other people seem to think that by having 20 stories on the forum, it makes the writing good. NOTE - it never has been and never will be. And there is a distinct lack of titles - just says to me 'Hello I can't be bothered' when you see 'new story no title' ' another one from me' and other such shit. I am seriously considering asking for all my work to be removed, not sure I want to be associated with the gobshite that's on there - Celia and Lyn B excluded. Having said that, I had loads of reviews for my first story and I'm not sure I want to lose them all. That story was a bit pants really - I realised the other day I'd made myself into such a Mary Sue... oh the SHAME!

Family - Why does Dad always have to know where I am, what I'm doing. Example - I was going to go to Sainsburys to get some coke, when he saw me putting my shoes on he asked where I was going. Then Once in the car I decided not to go, so i went back indoors. "Oh I thought you were going to the shops" "I decided not to." "Oh, why's that?" Argh! Then because I just said 'just didn't want to' he does this big old "I think you're being sullen and rude" sigh. And it bugs me when I say "Oh are you using the car tomorrow?" and then he wants to know where I'm going after he has already said I can use it.

Anyway, rant over, hope to hear from some of you soon!

ARGH

Tue, 09 May 2006 23:00:55 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRFGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

STUPID FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL LOST MY WHOLE POST!!!